Locker & Key

i miss morning sunset

2012-02-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

Today early in the morning, about 7 or 8am plus.

I woke up from urgent, so i go toilet pee.

suddenly i feel EMO. .. because i saw the morning sky.. the morning sun make me emo.

I start to feel, during the day when i still studies at lasalle. the morning scene.

As well as i miss the afternoon sunset at my sch bus stop there. where i wait there alone almost everytime, waiting for my bus to reach to go home.

And i tell myself... i miss those days.. and me myself can feel is deep emo.

STILL REMAIN JOBLESS.

2012-02-06T02:32:00.002+08:00

I'M HOPELESS.

I START TO SEE NO HOPE AT ALL.

I CAN'T FEEL HOPE EITHER.

WHAT I CAN DO IS WAIT. AND WAIT.

AND MY FAMILY GIVE ME IS SAY. SAY MEAN COMPLAIN AND NAGGING.

THE ENCOURAGE THAT THEY GIVE ME IS NAGGING... :(

Dream of u.

2012-01-19T18:25:00.002+08:00

Few days ago, I having a sad dream.
When i woke up from my dream.. i told myself if this scene happen in my real life.

It gonna be my past 23 yrs, my most sadness days in my life.. :(
Hope that night my dream appear opposite in real life and will not come true.

my ass dad

2012-01-13T17:53:00.001+08:00

我有这样的爸爸，真丢脸!

我有这样的爸爸，真丢脸!
出门都不敢也不想跟别人说他是我老爸。他妈的。

I HATE MY FAMILY

2012-01-05T01:28:00.001+08:00

I HATE MY PARENTS TOO SOMETIMES.

VERY HATE.

I HATE MY FAMILY TOO.

I HATE EVERYONE IN THE FAMILY.

.SOMETIMESSSSSSS.
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>P

2012 WISH

2012-01-02T00:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
HAVE A HAPPY 2012 AHEAD!

HERE IS MY WISH LIST FOR 2012 . /

1_ UPDATE MY HTC SMART PHONE TO EITHER BLACKBERRY OR HTC BRAND.
2_ CUT MY HAIR AFTER CHINESE NEW YEAR. (TILL VERY SHORT)
3_ BUY A NEW MOUSE.
4_ GET A XXXX.
5_ BUY A JACKET/ OUTWEAR
6_ GET TO SEE MY LECTURES AGAIN.
7_ HOPE PEOPLE WHO I LIKE OR LOVE 出路平安!
8_ GAIN WEIGHT.
9_ BUY MORE DESIGN BOOK.

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... ANYWAY, I GO TO PAGEONE WAREHOUSE AND BUY MYSELF A DESIGN BOOK! I WHEN AT SAT WHICH IS ON LAST DAY OF 31-12-2011.. . OH YA, I WENT ALONE, I GOT ASK MY FRIEND.. BUT SHE IS TOO LAZY TO WOKE UP EARLY. AS I WOKE UP AT 9.30AM.. TO QUEUE EARLY IN CASE LONG QUEUE.. AND LUCKY I WENT THERE EARLY.. AND I REACH THERE 12.18PM.. BECAUSE I LOST MY LONG THERE.. BUT LUCK NOT MANY PEOPLE.. TILL 1PM.. IT WAS CROWD..

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OH YA, HOW I SPENT MY 1ST DAY OF 2012?

.. I STAY AT HOME, WHILE MY 2ND WENT OUT, MY ELDER SIS, MUM, DAD AND NIECE WHEN TO CENTRE AND SHOPPING. MY YOUNGER SIS WHEN OUT FOR INVITED DINNER. SO I AT HOME SEE THE DESIGN BOOK THAT I BROUGHT AND LISTEN TO YES 933... ... SO THE WHOLE DAY TILL NOW BEEN SEEING THE DESIGN BOOK THAT I BROUGHT... .

:)

you are gentle

2011-12-26T17:30:00.003+08:00

you're gentle, i like it.
:)

i want {....} but i can't. But in my dream can fulfill my wish. That's the only way i can do.
ican'tHAVE {.....}, but istillWISHthatyouwill haveA "____".
<.BecauseIlike _____.>

\\&iBelievethatpersonisBETTERthanMe//

Merry Christmas 2011.

2011-12-23T20:23:00.004+08:00

HELLO , IT X'MAS AGAIN~

so how u guys going to celebrate ur x'mas this year?

with friends? with family? with ur love? or alone??
Well as for me, i going to celebrate alone.. or no celebrate at all. ZzZZZzz..

HAHAS! hmm, why? because my friends is working either or not free...
LAST YEAR ALSO... IT WAS LIKE EVERY YEAR THE SAME THING..

SO I BELIEVE THIS COMING X'MAS, ONLY ME, NIECE, MUM AND DAD IS AT HOME WITH ME...

SO BORING RIGHT? OKAY, I KNOW.
BUT JUST FEEL USE TO IT AND FEEL HELPLESS... THAT ALL I CAN SAY.

ANYWAY,
I WANT TO GO EAT THAI EXPRESS AND SATAY.. AS WELL AS WATCHING A MOVIE..

I CAN'T REMEMBER WHEN IS MY LAST TIME WATCHING A MOVIE THAT I REALLLY REALLLLLY... CAN'T REMEMBER AS IT REALLY VERYY LOOOONG.

lasalle start to end

2011-11-10T16:42:00.008+08:00

4 Aug 2008
~
30 April 2011.

missthosedays.
ex-specially aug 2010 to 2011 may.

haven job- 6mths

2011-11-03T03:07:00.003+08:00

am i going to wait till next year?
it already half of the years! 6 months you know?

I FEEL USELESS ABOUT MYSELF..
I DON'T HAVE CONFIDENT.. NOT EVEN 1%...

:( My heart cry :'(

Anyway , I START TO MISS ________________________.
Or should i say i never stop miss before.

I should say. I even miss __________________________.

fuck that rubbish.

2011-10-25T00:20:00.001+08:00

他妈的，他这种人真的是没有家教!
两个字，垃圾!
比垃圾还垃圾!!

他以为自己是什么东西!

一想到他就。。。恶心!!
非常恶心!

So Angry NOW!

170

2011-10-13T18:39:00.002+08:00

.170.

I JUST WANT TO WALK BACK THE STREETS THAT I USE TO WALK PASS.

ISN'T THAT DIFFICULT??

GOD.. PLEASE LET ME WENT BACK.
:(- HEART IS CRYING.

hopeless

2011-10-05T03:41:00.004+08:00

it's already 162.

i'm still no where.

and now is october.. i had lost for 5 mths plus, how long do i need to count the days?!

i feels like giving out. really.

and it going to half the years.. i'm still no where.

:(

fuck.okay.
_|_

KNN.

AND WHERE IS SINGAPORE INTERNSHIP GONE TO..
I CAN'T FIND.. :(

I'M CRYING :"(

gradauation cem

2011-09-21T02:38:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling scare + nervous + sad + worry for tml.

i scare and sad if i can't or nobody talk to me or come to me..

it could be weird and don know what to do..

all the best for me tml on wed!!!

HOPE EVERYTHING GO SMOOTH FOR TML...

I REALLY NERVOUS!

- anyway, i know i'm not anyone favorite.. :( :( :(

but just hope i 'm ur favorite.

139 job hunting

2011-09-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

139
.. still continues counting.
:/

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will my dream come true?

aptoscreation

2011-08-30T17:14:00.002+08:00

125.

YES, IT REACH 125.

first - mission fail.
sec - try twice and mission fail on 2nd.
do i have 3rd try, and success on 3rd times?

PLEASE TELL ME...
I DON WANT TO CONTINUES LIKE THIS..
I'M SO SUCH A FAILURE.
USELESS AND HOPELESS .. AS DAYS GO BY.

I START TO FEELS HEARTLESS. :( I'M SAD. I'M WORRY. I'M AFRAID.

ALL THE BEST TML INTERVIEW

2011-08-26T02:55:00.001+08:00

all the best to me for tml afternoon interview.

i feels afraid, worry and nervous.
because this is my very first time design job!
i'm afraid i can't do well n submit my work on time to my client.
(if interview success)

n afraid that the working people is not friendly.. n you know i'm quite.. don't exactly communication. :( :(

anyway, success anot depend on faith. leave to god handle.
god bless me! :)

about the job...
IF IT WAS MINE, IT MINE.
IF WASN'T MINE, IT WASN'T MINE.

是我的就是我的。
如果不是我的就不是我的。

all the very best to me tml.
and i scare is because tml is fri, everytime i do thing in fri, no good result.
so, just pray hard for me.

112

2011-08-17T04:12:00.002+08:00

`112`

ONE
ONE
TWO
//

一
一
二

//

"ONE HUNDRED AND TEN"

DAY
天
! ! !!

:(
:(
:( :(

110 job seeking

2011-08-15T16:46:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS DAYS 110.

MY HEART START TO FEEL.. LOST, WORRY, AFRAID, USELESS, HOPELESS, MEANINGLESS, WONDERING WHY... DOES IT EARN TO WAIT FOR??

I FEEL SORRY AND I FEEL THAT I HAVE LET THE PERSON DOWN.

DOES IT EARN THE WAIT??
WHAT AM I WAITING FOR??/ :(
HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO WAIT ??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD BLESS ME .. PLEASE!

I'm having Low Blood Pressure Recently.

2011-08-06T18:58:00.000+08:00

I'm having Low Blood Pressure Recently.

Last Sat or Sunday, My 2nd sis bring home test blood equipments from her work place (Thomson medicine center) for doing test blood for my little niece. As she is having fever, cough and flu and keep vomiting after drinking her milk. And also refuse to eat anythings. So my sis decided to help my niece do test blood check what is happening..

After doing test blood for my niece, there is still left about 3 -4 tubes. So my sis help my mum and me do a test blood.

The Next day, the result is out.

My sis say, I'm OK. BUT... BUT...
I have very LOW BLOOD PRESSURE.

Because of i eat less, no nutrition. Then my sis ask my mum if free cook more pig brain soup for me to drink.. -.-

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造成低血压的原因有哪些

　　1、体制性因素造成的低血压，通常体质比较薄弱、瘦小的人容易患上低血压。

　　2、老年人最容易患上低血压，很容易出现精神性疲倦、头晕眼花、大脑前额低血压性疼痛。

　　2、某些疾病造成的低血压，比如一些降血压药物、心脏病、抗忧郁症药物、化疗、其他一些医学疾病都会造成患者出现低血压。

　　3、营养不良也会造成低血压。

　　4、各种慢性疾病同样会造成低血压，像结核病、感冒、糖尿病等。

　　5、心脏病会直接导致低血压的罪魁祸首，常常出现于老年人身上，一般来说心肌炎、脑梗和一些常见的心脏与大脑疾病都会造成低血压出现。

I belong to Number 1 and 3.

One Day, I will pass away, under 5 reasons: no1- Because of very low blood pressure (recently). No 2- Eat too much packet/ cup noodles. No 3 - Heart failure. No 4- No nutrition. No 5- Skinny till die. :)

OKOK,... TOUCH WOOD!

Lasalle days part 2

2011-08-04T17:56:00.002+08:00

The Street that i use to walk pass.
The Road i use to walk pass.
The Bus i use to board.
The Peoples I often see.
A Few peoples that i very look forward to see them everyday.
The Scene I often see.

Now is no more. But is temp no more.

YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS IT..
YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE IT.

I'M CRAZY ABOUT IT.

Really piss off nowadays parents

2011-07-07T13:23:00.003+08:00

Really piss off nowadays parents..

if you read news on any singapore newspapers. You will found news on either stepfather rape/kill his wife's daughter or father rape his own daughter or .. 2 little boys, both his parents are in jail, then parent send them to their aunt house to ""take care of them"", end up 1 of the boy killed by his aunt.

Or even the whole CB family member bully and hurt a 10 yrs old kid of their own family memeber.. His mother, his Father and his 2 sister is bullying him. AND END UP THE LITTLE BOY HAVE LEFT LOTS OF SCAR ON HIS BODY FOREVER.

OR even worst, a little girl was rape by her OWN brother and his brother friend!
OR.. OR ... parents want divorce, husband don't want, end up bringing his kids jump down from a building together and die!

Everytimes, when i read such a news on internet on chinese newspapers, I WAS VERY SAD, ANGRY, WONDER AND PISS OFF.

YOU SEE PISS OFF RIGHT?!
Those type of people/parent are really #!/%^&

JOB SEEK

2011-06-29T15:39:00.001+08:00

TODAY IS DAYS 63,
& I'M STILL SEEKINGGG...

LONG WAY TO GO.. :(

friendster account-deleted

2011-06-25T01:00:00.001+08:00

2 week ago, I had done something amazing! That I ever thought of deleted away in the past..Because I don't bear to delete away.. as there are lot of memory insides.
Even though I don need to use it! ..

But 2 weeks ago, I deleted away.
I FINALLY DELETED AWAY MY FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT!!

Before I deleted away, I don't even read & view through all the " photos, about me, testimonial & comments"! And not even screen shot the whatever it is in friendster!

I deleted away.. without regret!

There nothing to miss it,
All the photos, about me, testimonials & comments i shall kill it and it will disappear from earth and go HELL...
And will not think of it anymore. Nothing earn to think of it.
Just let it lost and get lost of my life.

next Thing,

2011-05-21T19:10:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y86FckvL_1g

_____________________________

心里能感觉你们还在
如此靠近的遥远。
想念的瞬间不断浮现。。。
。。。。

。。。

接下来可好可坏
我只要记得起点。

接下来我去迎接不后退。。

i love lasalle

2011-05-03T20:12:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY LIFE IN LASALLE COLLEGE.
I LOVE IT.

ALTHOUGH, THEY MAKE ME STUDIES DAY AND NIGHT, STUDIES LIKE MAD VERY NIGHT.

THANKS YOU, LASALLE.
THE MEMORY THEY GIVE ME WAS GLAD!
I WILL REMEMBER YOU FOREVER.

I SWEAR, I WILL BE BACK AGAIN BY 27 YEARS OLD.
I WILL BE A LASALLE STUDENT AGAIN.
I WILL BE BACK TO STUDIES FOR DEGREE AGAIN. A 2 YEARS DEGREE.

bus stop

2011-03-17T00:17:00.003+08:00

I wanna say..

I'm so HAPPY today, when I was on the way home. :D

lalala~ This moments! And i just can't stop begain so HAPPY. YEAH~MEITING IS SO HAPPY, SHE IS A HAPPY GIRL.

Why?

I doesn't matter why, as long as i know why. hahas.

fall in again.

2011-01-22T15:21:00.001+08:00

每次都自己说习惯就好，可是每次都会觉得会痛。
到最后，还是看开一点。因为是习惯。

虽然是痛，可是我享受过程。。。